I read this out on Monday as we stood beside John My Darling John, Its' time to say a final good bye . I am so sorry that we couldn't fulfil your wishes and let you go to St James . The way things are at the moment they were unable to take you. We know you didn't want everyone going to the Crematorium and so there are just the four of us, me Beverly ,Dawn and Gary. We will do as you ask and when everything is back to normal we will have a get together. Love and miss you everyday but, I am trying to keep the tears at bay, with little success at times Sleep well my darling